The world is collapsing, and I don't know anymore whether I crave it or am repulsed by it. My heart and head conclude differently. Am I going insane or am I a rational thinker in a world that's gone insane? I don't know anymore.
I can't be alone. After all, a segment of humanity has idolized a sadomasochistic demagogue leading them into the abyss. Rationality has no meaning anymore, if it ever did. The only explanation is that everyone yearns for pain - perhaps to feel alive. Or maybe to cut the knot tightened beyond reversal. What do you do when everything is beyond reach?

Red buttons everywhere. And they're being smashed like a toddler with a new plaything. No regard for consequences. No methodology or process. Just governance by emotion, hate, and retribution.
I went insane a week ago. It has provided me clarity. Before, I thought our division was between bourgeoisie and proletariat. Today, I see it's every man, woman and child for themselves. Throw out what you thought. Factions upon factions are forming, twisting the societal strata. Soon we may be observers, sidelined as power eats power.
Before, I thought there was rationality to the destruction. The pursuit of money and power. Today, it's clear they simply don't care. They want to accelerate the end game. No motive required. That's the clarity.
It's destruction for the sake of destruction. They desire the pain, as do I. It's a sickness and my heart knows better. But with the loss of control, there's nothing but despair, hatred and violence. Break the planet. Break the economy. Break society.
Smash! Smash! Smash! It's happening. It's madness but all perfectly rational in a collapsing civilization.
Your a rational thinker in a country gone insane (not sure about world). Everything has been inverted. Sanity is considered insanity.
Insanity is now the norm. Intelligence is stupidity. Lies are truth. What's mine is mine, what's yours is mine.
This is what collapse looks like. It isn't supposed to be pretty or easy. It won't be a fun ride. People are going to try and ignore it
Rationality has never been a strong point amongst humans. I never thought I'd see the day when people actually believed the earth is flat. A 28 year old construction guru couldn't add 16 to 5.
Drugs offer an escape from reality and rational thinking. It's the preferred method of the people I'm around. It's the only reason I have a miniscule belief in God. HE seems to be protecting the fools. Not very helpful in my opinion.
Keep in mind that this has all been orchestrated and planned. Every last bit of it. That's the reality. Trump is just following the PLAN. The vast majority of people can't imagine planning something 100 years into the future but it can be done and has been.
Overpopulation and unsustainable consumption and growth have been known about for over 100 years. Climate change by CO2 emissions 60 years. One contributing to the other. Both have been conveniently dismissed and denied and the majority of people convinced that growth can continue unabated. The planners know different. They have the ways and means now to solve climate change and collapse of the planet.
Whether it works or not will remain to be seen.
"An evil man will burn his own city to the ground to rule over the ashes." Sun Tzu "The Art of War."
It's always about control, one way or another. With technology, the temple moneychangers of today are able to inflict more damage in minimal time. For example, weather warfare goes on unnoticed for the most part to a distracted populace.